Trying to find inner peace

 

 

Hello! How are you? There are days when everything is great. you grades are good, you are good at your work, you and your family are healthy, you have a place to stay and everything is going well. And than life happens. Your school gets harder and harder and suddenly it starts to affect your mental health, you are lucky enough if you have a job (any kind, really), than there is this bitch called cancer and I could go on and on and on. Is it really worth it? Spending every day thinking about future and how we need to make things, so the better tomorrow will come. Stepping over your boundaries so you will prove someone wrong?

For example: 

From the very beginning we are raised to suck it up, work hard, pick ourselves up over and over again, never brake, never complain or express your opinion if there is possibility that it will negatively affect how people see you. We are supposed to get married (there's really no need to be in love), have families and live happily ever after without showing our neighbours the other side of family. But that's just fine, people are here to work hard and make things happen. But what happens when it gets too much? I could lie and say I didn't forget about JDM's birthday but there's no need to to that. When studying on one of the hardest schools in Slovenia (that by the way is kind of brutal), you barely have time for anything else... And excuse me, but after spending two afternoons and nights behind books studying math and for the relaxation biology, I can barely do anything else. I thought this guys from school, that's at the same town as mine, were joking when they said that they study once a week (if!)...But there is this thing that I believe very strongly in
IF IT'S MEANT TO BE, IT WILL BE! 
Luckily we have friends and family!
Have a great day, stay positive!
Love, Neža